The stress of End of Pregnancy

Now...I know in about a week I will get daily calls from some relative or friend asking how I'm doing. They will be random, out of the blue, quick calls. Just basic "are you in labor? we don't trust you to tell us if you are in labor." phone calls.

This will be how they play out
ring ring (because cell phones sound like that?)
Me: Hello?
Whomever: Hey!
Me: Hey! Whats goin on
pause
Whomever: Er...nothing, just thought of you and thought I'd give a call. How are you doing?
Me: I'm fine, just gestating.
Whomever: Oh yeah, you'll be getting to the end soon won't you? Totally slipped my mind.
Me: Yep (my teeth are clenched in a smile so I sound happy at this point) towards the middle/end of October!
Whomever: So close?? I had no idea.
Me: I know, its speeding by
Whomever: Okay, well really I was just calling to hear your voice, I gotta go!
Me: Talk to you later
*click*

sigghhhhh

I'm used to it and I just fully expect it at this point. I gloss over those calls and forget em quickly.

What I was NOT expecting and what has caused CONSIDERABLE stress lately is my own little betrayers. Thing 1 and Thing 2 as they deserve to be called for now.

The boy and girl are merciless asking me daily questions about when she will be born and when the baby will be here and what will we do when baby is here, will we still have school, will we still see friends, when when when when when will she be here.

Making me panicked and constantly reminding that a) I will need to give birth again...is there STILL no easier way? No magic wand? Where's that genie of the lamp when I need him/her.
and b) I will be bringing a fourth home.

Normally this is NOT an issue for me. I cope well with the three, I have a sling, strollers, etc. But TODAY I ended up with the 3 of them on errands. This doesn't happen often, we TRY to schedule things so I go to the library for pick up (love online requesting) and we either go grocery shopping as singletons or as a family so 2 parents to help. But because of scheduling issues I HAD to go to the library AND grocery shopping with all three.

They were good. It wasn't 'that' hard. It never is. But today it made me think about tugging along 4. 4 carseats/boosters to tighten, help into, help out of. 4 children to pull out of a car and make sure they stay near so that they are safe in parking lots. 4 children to watch and keep an eye and ear on in various places.

I can do it. I know this.

But I also know it will be a tremendous amount of stress, especially at first.

and that induces the internal mental scream at the thought that this will be happening soon. Which I can normally forget.

Unless the kids KEEP REMINDING ME!

UGHHHH. :)

An Aids vaccine?

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090924/ap_on_re_as/med_aids_vaccine

how awesome would that be?
I hope all the trials come out correctly!

Kris Allen's Single!

Awesome!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WnmNvbomQE&feature=player_embedded#t=106

hooray!

My favorite Etsy shop

Like so many moms I love the Etsy stuff.

This is my favorite, favorite shop
http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=8054555

hookaholic's shop. she makes fabu stuff and has made my baby her coming home outfit!




she does custom sizes and colors and honestly has the best prices I've seen. I WISH I was that talented :P Jelly.

Its Football Season! WOOOOOTTT

Redskins kick off at 4 today, against the Giants.

I realize that not everyone loves the football, but in our house today is close to a holiday.

SOOO

Hail to the Redskins
Hail to Victory
Hail to the Redskins
Fight for Old DC

these guys:


say GO SKINS

Yet another 9-11 post

8 years ago we were all shocked out of a very large and apparently false sense of security. The results have been devastating. Two wars, a potential third, schisms developing between parties that have ripped the nation apart. The deaths are horrific, the injuries too. Our nation has stooped to terrorist tactics to interrogate the enemy. We have impounded people, yet again, for their ethnicity, teens and students held under suspicion.

Our president has been maligned because his name sounds like the terrorists.

We are a humbled and wounded nation.

We've healed some of the immediate pain of loss and destruction. The firefighters, innocent people in the buildings and planes, the police officers, the soldiers that have all lost their lives or their health in some way. Those wounds are all healing.

We need to heal the other wounds. The ones that still pour blood, the ones that still break back open daily when politics drag us apart, when the media RIPS them apart to rub salt in them instead of trying to bring us together. They have the power to do both, but they choose the easier course, the inflammatory course, and its sick.

I don't know how long it will take for our country to be one again. Or if it can be. But I know that in the current state all we are doing is spoiling for a reason to fight. And fight big.

8 years later and we still bleed.

The problem with the 'media' and politics

Recently there was terrible ugliness about an innocuous speech the President wanted (and did) give to school age children about staying in school and personal responsibility.

It was called indoctrination, socialist, compared to Hitler, etc. etc.
I am shocked at the insinuations that were hurled. But I think the problem doesn't lie with actual politicians.

I think that it comes from the 24 hours tabloid style journalism we have.

Think about the crap that we started dealing with once we had Clinton. What he ate, where he ran, and his poor daughter. Chelsea had to deal with all sorts of negative press and jokes over her awkward phase. Because we are all soooo frickin gorgeous in those teen years? Clinton, God Bless him I respect him as a politician, gave the media the foothold they'd been looking for with his little 'trysts' (if only he'd kept his 'affairs' on the dl like smart men in power...where would we be today) and once that ball got rolling...

And then Bush came, and we had the awkwardness of the contested election (and will anyone ever name their son Chad again?). His...er...verbal slips (which...as a speech prof I cringe at but if speakings not your thing its not your thing) were just fodder for the mill, easy targets. 9-11 opened the door to support for a bit, but the inevitable criticism that is waiting to turn everyone into foaming lunatics. And worse, much worse in my opinion, HIS kids became targets. The bush girls couldn't just grow up making mistakes and being themselves, every misdeed they dealt with was televised and sensationalized. I shudder to think that Malia and Sascha will have to go through all of that (and HAVE actually been pulled in and used by some already)

again, our news is immediate, they need something to say, they need ratings, so they go after what gets people watching. People don't want to hear the fantastic arguments from both sides for the various types of health care reform, they'd rather hear about Michelle Obama baring her arms, wearing shorter shorts (to the frickin HOT grand canyon) than she 'should' and of course, this speech.

We get up in arms over stupid stuff that should barely register with us because these news organizations bring it to our attention and act like the world is ending because by acting that way more people tune in and their ratings go up.

When you find the actual debates over real issues it lasts like 5 minutes and then they move on "speaking of health insurance, did you hear that pelosi and obama have been at odds over this issue and have had a strained relationship" "yes Diane (isn't there always a Diane) the fight has split apart what had been a working team)"

taking a difference of opinion (without explaining that difference of course, cause who wants real news) and turning it into a fight between the people involved. They do it ALL THE TIME and there's no real solution, which sucks even more so.

Its not partisan, it really isn't. Its all stupid, stupid political tabloid journalism.

I'm going to be pregnant forever.

Or at least I feel that way. I know I'm just hitting that natural spot I always get to. BUT SIIIGGGHHHHHHH.

I have 7-9 weeks to go and its just never going to end.

:P